Wander With Me as I Tell the Tales of my Odyssey
It’s pitch black. The spotlight warms my face and I can feel beads of sweat crowning my forehead. I can practically hear my heartbeat pumping in my chest as I stare into the abyss in front of me. As I inhale, I know that life as I know it is about to change.
Exhale. It’s time.
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"As it turns out, you don’t learn that much from picking the safe road and doing everything the way you think it should be done."
So this one time, when I was a second semester senior in college, I applied for an international contest and almost worked in Australia (more on this later). Though this whirlwind, and seemingly unreal experience, doesn’t define me, it’s where the “BMAC” everyone knew ended and my life as “Britt Mac” began.
Let’s start with how I thought life after college would be. Picture bubbly senior year Brittany itching for her first shot out of college to show the world what she’s made of through all the experiences she acquired. I can remember naively thinking, “Soooo I’ll get the job of my dreams, everyone will love me, I’ll quickly rise to the top, get my own place, get a dog, get engaged, get married, have a kid, contemplate whether I’m gonna be a bad ass girl boss working mom or be a loving, chocolate chip cookies making, drive my kid to all their practices stay at home mom, have another kid, maybe another (depends on how my pregnancies go), travel the world, love my family and get everything I ever wanted out of life”. 25 year old Brittany is sitting on her couch HYSTERICALLY LAUGHING at 21 year old Brittany. ‘HAHA, NICE TRY, BMAC! You ol’ kidder, you!” Life is not even close to what I thought it would be. I thought I did everything “right” with my education to prepare myself for life after college. As it turns out, you don’t learn that much from picking the safe road and doing everything the way you think it should be done.
"Your whole life you’re in school and you’re graded on a specific guideline and anyone who goes outside of the margin of normalcy is 'weird' or 'wrong' or 'failing'."
I want to pause and talk about the word “should” for a second. The biggest mistake of my early twenties (and yes I can say that now because I’m a quarter of a century old) is that I couldn’t stop “should”ing myself and comparing my progress to those around me. Your whole life you’re in school and you’re graded on a specific guideline and anyone who goes outside of the margin of normalcy is “weird” or “wrong” or “failing”. Then you graduate college, which feels like being an old fish dumped into a new, dirty, vastly overpopulated pond. You’re all of a sudden overwhelmed with the feeling that you’ll have to swim for the rest of your life to reach your dreams. As my father told me in September after I graduated college, “life is a marathon, not a sprint”. Up until now, it felt like I was sprinting between predetermined breaks and vacations but now, I’m on my own new track. The distance is unknown and the pit stops are not mapped out ahead of time and it is up to me to stay the course.
If you’re starting to feel bad for me, or down in general, don’t you dare! This is a story of a mid life crisis happening 25-29 years early, which has ultimately led me to living the life I’ve always wanted to lead. The life that allows me to endlessly search and create complete happiness and self satisfaction.
"The distance is unknown and the pit stops are not mapped out ahead of time, and it is up to me to stay the course."
I hope you’ll wander with me as I tell the tales of my odyssey. Whether it be the things I wish I knew when I first graduated college as an eager, enthusiastic, young adult or the things I am continually exploring and learning every day, I am wicked excited to share my thoughts with you.
Welcome aboard, lads. Happy to have ya with me!
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